Boston

"Boston"

In the light of the sun, is there anyone? Oh it has begun...
Oh dear you look so lost, eyes are red and tears are shed,
This world you must've crossed... she said...

You don't know me, you don't even care, oh yeah,
She said
You don't know me, and you don't wear my chains... oh yeah,

Essential yet appealed, carry all your thoughts across
An open field,
When flowers gaze at you... they're not the only ones who cry
When they see you
She said...

You don't know me, you don't even care, oh yeah,
She said
You don't know me, and you don't wear my chains... oh yeah,

She said I think I'll go to Boston...
I think I'll start a new life,
I think I'll start it over, where no one knows my name,
I'll get out of California, I'm tired of the weather,
I think I'll get a lover and fly him out to Spain...
Oh yeah and I think I'll go to Boston,
I think that I'm just tired
I think I need a new town, to leave this all behind...
I think I need a sunrise, I'm tired of the sunset,
I hear it's nice in the Summer, some snow would be nice... oh yeah,

You don't know me, you don't even care, oh yeah...

Boston... where no one knows my name... yeah
Where no one knows my name...
Where no one knows my name...
Boston...
No one knows my name.

Try watching or hearing it: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=N1ZBJ570wug :)

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One of the songs we've played during our first broad in devcom. :) This song.. I just remembered something. Oh emm. I don't want to cry but this song actually brings a message that really knocks my heart. right now..

Photography

Photo exhibit of DEVC140 students at CDC's lobby

My class a while ago in devcom 20 (DevJourn) inspired me to blog about photography. We are asked to go out of the building and take a look with the photo exhibit at the carabao's park (CPark in UPLB).

I really love taking pictures since then. If I am not mistaken, my passion on this started way back to my Romblon days. I was so inlove with the place that took me to have several photos there (thanks to my tita who let me borrowed her cam).

Well, I find comfort when taking pictures. Seriously. It makes me feel calm and peaceful. Looking back on my photographs makes me forget my stressful acad things, my problems and stuff.

Photo exhibit at CPark in UPLB

If you will notice, I started blogging with pictures now. My devcom classes taught us why. Pictures can bring readers to the real scenario of the place and even the emotions the writer wants to portray or discuss.

That's why photography is something I love also. Sadly, I am just using my phone's camera when taking all of these pictures. I am still believing God for a dslr this 2013 (claiming it actually).

Just like what my professor said a while ago,
"Wala sa camera yan, nasa mata ng photographer lang yan..."

If God gave you the talent, use it to bless others. If it is God's will, then it is God's bill (Just remembered the often reminder/saying of our pastor).

I'm so glad of my course and blessed with what God is giving me. Thank You Lord. It's all You.

More photos to come! :)

Too much from yesterday

This photo was taken at the back of the main library here in UPLB. The trees have just caught my attention while we were having our POSC meeting.

Because of these trees, I was reminded of some of the parables in the bible. Trees have been used several times as a good illustration of our faith in God, moreover, of how we can work with the relationship we have. If we want to have a relationship that will last, we should plant our seed at the right place, taking care of it everyday and night and just wait till it blooms and produce good fruits.

Good foundation is the key for stronger you. And where would people find this foundation?

It only comes from God.

If He is your foundation for everything, you will be strong enough to face the world of trials. Making Him as your foundation is the surest and best way to win. Why? For He is the STRONGEST among the rest. He is the King above all things and He is the ONLY ONE who is ABLE to give everything.

Just like these trees, we should be rooted deeply on the soil. Founded with God's words and wisdom on every decision we are about to make. Typhoons may sometimes come, but believe it, if you are rooted deeply, you'll be strong to face it.

People may doubt sometimes maybe because they cannot really feel the love of God. But if you are secured enough and you believe for His unconditional love, you will not doubt... FOR GOD IS FOREVER TRUE WITH HIS WORDS. Though you not see Him, you will FEEL Him.

And that's what I want: even though I don't see things, I am rest assured.. secured, for I know that the words given to me are already proved, sincere, and full of love.

I don't need promises that is not meant. I don't need sweet words that are deceiving. I don't need someone who is not true. I just need one who will always be TRUE.

If I have to cut my branches that is dull and does not produce good leaves and fruits, I must cut it.
I should focus and invest more to my branches that produce good fruits.

Thanks to these trees, I was really reminded of my needs and wants, my foundation, cornerstone and topstone. Having my high standards for I am loved, bought and saved by a Holy One - Jesus.

No one has the right to hurt my feelings. Only God.

Something New

This caught my attention early this morning as I, and my fellow student assistants walk through a new shortcut to Forestry here in UPLB. It is really something new (new way in UP plus new infras here). Perhaps, the world is really telling me that something new should happen now in my life. This is something that made my day (given the MCCafe and the all alone sit near the kwek kwek tower by 8am). Well, all I want now is to be alone, reminisce how far I've got to and appreciate the things that God gives me everyday.

I enjoyed too much and forgot to thank Him for a while. The time when I least enjoy is actually the time I appreciate more. Every little things in my life is now being appreciated. I feel the shame of ignoring these blessings from God.. Thanks to this trial, I become more sensitive. Really something new and something refreshing.

New things for a better ME.

Randomness at the middle of Monday

 "Push"

She said I don't know if I've ever been good enough
I'm a little bit rusty, and I think my head is caving in
And I don't know if I've ever been really loved
By a hand that's touched me, well I feel like something's
Gonna give
And I'm a little bit angry, well

This ain't over, no not here, not while I still need you
Around
You don't owe me, we might change
Yeah we just might feel good

[chorus]

I wanna push you around, well I will, I will
I wanna push you down, well I will, I will
I wanna take you for granted, I wanna take you for granted
Well I will

She said I don't know why you ever would lie to me
Like I'm a little untrusting when I think that the truth is
Gonna hurt ya
And I don't know why you couldn't just stay with me
You couldn't stand to be near me
When my face don't seem to want to shine
Cuz it's a little bit dirty well

Don't just stand there, say nice things to me
I've been cheated I've been wronged, and you
You don't know me, I can't change
I won't do anything at all

[chorus]

Oh but don't bowl me over
Just wait a minute well it kinda fell apart, things get so
Crazy, crazy
Don't rush this baby, don't rush this baby

[chorus]

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As I listen to this song, I feel down about myself. I just don't understand the situations right now. I'm trying to do my very best not to hurt anyone's feelings. Maybe those things that I long for years are not really meant for me. 

It's hard to accept but it's the only key to move forward. If you do not act, nothing would happen. The same person will be the same person unless someone would correct him. 

Maturity can be learned. God can supply us with different experiences for us to achieve maturity in life. Maybe I'm still on the working progress.. I was once afraid to accept the lessons given to me by God, but it is not an excuse for me. I know that. It is really clear. Being afraid is not good. It' is certainly a "lie" from the enemy. If you are afraid, you have fear. And fear is the opposite of faith. SO if you fear something, it is very clear that you don't have the faith.

Perhaps, the song is not connected with what I am saying now.. But it feels like it's the song of my life at this time. 

I don't want to lose somebody but if it's the only key for him to know his lessons in life and be matured enough in Christ, I am willing to let go. Accept the truth, take the challenge and believe in Christ.

I may did something wrong in my life before, but I know.. those sins have been paid by CHRIST  as He gave His life ON THE CROSS. I am being renewed, saved by someone and I'm not gonna waste it AGAIN. 

God loves me and He does not want His princess to feel hurt. He died for me not to feel bad about my life but have the worship and praises each day and night.

He died for me not to cry but to have tears that make him feel glorified.

He died and live once again for me to stand and have a second life.

I may be weak but I know my BIG God is strong.

I may stumbled before, but I know my GOD has already forgiven me.

How about you? How are you with your GOD? How are you with the PEOPLE that surrounds you? 

Do you please God? Re-evaluate yourself. 

Pray. Accept. Move On. "PUSH"

Last resort is a NO NO.

Trying to be okay for the sake of being fine with the situation is really hard, moreover if you’re just alone. But what does God told us? When you’re with Him, you are not alone and the situation will not turn fine just because you gave the effort but BECAUSE HE GAVE THE WAY FOR YOU TO OVERCOME. Maybe you’ve just forgotten that promise but please, please and please… Always keep it in mind. Those sweetness words that somebody could offer and say are not enough to the care and love that God can offer and give to you. You just have to open your eyes to what is right and wrong. Yes it’s hard, but God promised to be with us all throughout the struggles that we are about to experience.

Don’t make God as your last resort but the FIRST. When you are hurt, just PRAY and ask God for wisdom. When you don’t understand the people around you, GO and READ His word.