Randomness at the middle of Monday

 "Push"

She said I don't know if I've ever been good enough
I'm a little bit rusty, and I think my head is caving in
And I don't know if I've ever been really loved
By a hand that's touched me, well I feel like something's
Gonna give
And I'm a little bit angry, well

This ain't over, no not here, not while I still need you
Around
You don't owe me, we might change
Yeah we just might feel good

[chorus]

I wanna push you around, well I will, I will
I wanna push you down, well I will, I will
I wanna take you for granted, I wanna take you for granted
Well I will

She said I don't know why you ever would lie to me
Like I'm a little untrusting when I think that the truth is
Gonna hurt ya
And I don't know why you couldn't just stay with me
You couldn't stand to be near me
When my face don't seem to want to shine
Cuz it's a little bit dirty well

Don't just stand there, say nice things to me
I've been cheated I've been wronged, and you
You don't know me, I can't change
I won't do anything at all

[chorus]

Oh but don't bowl me over
Just wait a minute well it kinda fell apart, things get so
Crazy, crazy
Don't rush this baby, don't rush this baby

[chorus]

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As I listen to this song, I feel down about myself. I just don't understand the situations right now. I'm trying to do my very best not to hurt anyone's feelings. Maybe those things that I long for years are not really meant for me. 

It's hard to accept but it's the only key to move forward. If you do not act, nothing would happen. The same person will be the same person unless someone would correct him. 

Maturity can be learned. God can supply us with different experiences for us to achieve maturity in life. Maybe I'm still on the working progress.. I was once afraid to accept the lessons given to me by God, but it is not an excuse for me. I know that. It is really clear. Being afraid is not good. It' is certainly a "lie" from the enemy. If you are afraid, you have fear. And fear is the opposite of faith. SO if you fear something, it is very clear that you don't have the faith.

Perhaps, the song is not connected with what I am saying now.. But it feels like it's the song of my life at this time. 

I don't want to lose somebody but if it's the only key for him to know his lessons in life and be matured enough in Christ, I am willing to let go. Accept the truth, take the challenge and believe in Christ.

I may did something wrong in my life before, but I know.. those sins have been paid by CHRIST  as He gave His life ON THE CROSS. I am being renewed, saved by someone and I'm not gonna waste it AGAIN. 

God loves me and He does not want His princess to feel hurt. He died for me not to feel bad about my life but have the worship and praises each day and night.

He died for me not to cry but to have tears that make him feel glorified.

He died and live once again for me to stand and have a second life.

I may be weak but I know my BIG God is strong.

I may stumbled before, but I know my GOD has already forgiven me.

How about you? How are you with your GOD? How are you with the PEOPLE that surrounds you? 

Do you please God? Re-evaluate yourself. 

Pray. Accept. Move On. "PUSH"